The Beginning!

A day or four are left and my heart pounds at times fast, at times slow. Today, I stepped on the stone laid right at the main entrance door of my home. I gazed at it more than usual and then just sat on it for a while thinking it won’t be soon that I would be touching this marble again. Although, leaving home is all about feeling empty, ironically, I could feel the heaviness of that emptiness.

Myriad of memories, the glimpses of happy family time cherishing the glorious evenings of success and moments of family caressing me despite of learning about the blunders I made, they all were as if standing behind my back and saying ‘Go! You are all set to step out in this real world’. I enquired, am I really ready? And that question lost its weight as I recalled that we are never ready for a thing, we learn only when we fall or walk into the unknown arena.

Thousands of times, I have read or thought that I am an individual and every individual has its purpose on this earth. Often, have I felt that it’s not about proving to the world or people what you can do, but it’s about being peaceful working just for yourself. I rose from the stone and ran inside to the kitchen to catch a sight of a woman who was working in all harmony with  no intention of pleasing mankind. An inspiration often rests right around us, I smiled in a satisfaction.

With that subtle smile still on my countenance, I walked to the terrace that opened up the bluish white sky. I touched the parapet wall and closed my eyes to look back. My cousins and brother, we all young dancing on a special eve flashed to club the wonderful childhood chapters. I sighed deeply. Descending down the stairs, I looked at the packed bags stacked in the alley as if they were calling me.

The departure is a must, so I set my mind on an airplane booklet and a mail from the university. Skimmed through it, smiled as I read ‘enjoy your last few days back home’. My mom patted on my shoulder saying ‘ahh! You did enjoy your stay here, didn’t you?’. We laughed as I found her peeking into the mail and reading along. I hugged her tight for her being there always. She said you have learnt all your lessons here now change the scene to explore further.

I got my answer that I was ready to take the step. I understood that I had all the best moments back at home. And I grasped that I will have someone to take my care, may be parents, siblings, friends, a significant other or at times I alone would be enough for myself. I sat back on that stone at the entrance with my mom beside. We took a sip of coffee saying cheers to the new beginning.